My kids are obsessed with music these days. I’m obsessed with quiet. They LOVE to have the radio really loud in their bedroom so all three of them can hear and SING while they are getting ready. I love to have everything quiet so I can hear myself think. In the car, they are constantly searching through Apple Music on my phone to get just the right songs to play in the car. If I had my way, we would all drive in silence.
Sometimes God has to use that love I have for my children that makes me surrender my personal preferences and desires so He can get my attention.
Because lately, I’ve been struggling to give God my attention.
I’ve been struggling to walk in His presence. I’ve been struggling to remember Him in awe and to allow His Spirit to lead and guide me.
But there’s this song all my children sing constantly that states “won’t you wake me up when my faith is asleep…remind me how much I need ya, when I get amnesia”
That word amnesia has been stopping me in my tracks this past week.
God has been whispering all the things I have forgotten as I trudge through my days. I’ve forgotten how refreshing rewriting the scripture I’m studying is. I’ve forgotten the joy in simply singing praise to God. I’ve forgotten the transformational power memorizing scripture and meditating on it all day is. I’ve forgotten the joy found in simply being still with the Lord.
Can you relate? Does your relationship with the Lord sometimes feel stagnant?
This morning, as I sat down to spend time with the Lord, He practically yelled the lyrics to this song in my mind, and I had admit, I was just about to go through the motions of reading my Bible and not truly interact with the God of the universe. Amnesia makes you forget that the effort is worth it.
Today my prayer is simply this song that I used to so desperately want my children to stop singing.
Lord, I pray every moment of the day today you constantly wake me up when I start to forget and remind me I need you when I start to rely on myself.